Change Isn’t Easy

It’s been a long time since I’ve blogged, too long actually. These past couple of months have been a whirlwind, to say the least, and the lessons and trials I’ve been going through are ones I feel most people learn later in life.

I’ve been hesitant and reserved in sharing what God has spoken into my life because honestly, I’m still processing daily what that looks like and what that means. Last Fall I was driving in my car on my way to campus, it was just like any other day, I had my Christian tunes playing in the background and “God of this City” by Chris Tomlin came on. Not thinking much of it suddenly this heaviness and boldness came over my heart and I was brought to sobbing and God spoke to me so clearly “you are going to be part of the change in this City.” Just like you are probably going “huh?” So was I in that moment.

I held onto that truth spoken to me with all that I have not knowing what that meant or where that would lead me at the time. Life continued on as normal and with a successful National Sales competition title that Fall I was blessed with sales job offers coming in throughout the U.S.

I knew in my heart this didn’t align with those bold words spoken to me and I was at a standstill. Come January, I was on LinkedIn and saw an opening for the Executive Director position for Downtown Kenosha Inc. I read through the job description and this sense of peace and purpose flooded my heart. I applied and eagerly awaited a response. The doubt and lies of the enemy flooded my mind….why would they pick you? You’re not even out of college? You’re 23 years old, how are you going to run a nonprofit?

The more these thoughts arose the deeper I anchored my soul to God’s promise. Shortly after, I got asked in for an interview. I cannot even begin to explain or fathom the peace that God placed in my heart throughout the entire process. Although I wasn’t extended an offer until April, the entire time I knew this was what God chose for me, this was going to be me “being part of that change.”

God has a sense of humor, you know that? I’m a complete optimist and it’s hard to catch me down, so naturally, when God placed in my heart “you are going to be part of the change” I automatically thought Woohoo! Change! How exciting! Yay God! Let’s do this!

My dear friends, how wrong I was. Change doesn’t come easy, it’s extremely painful, it doesn’t come with a guide book telling you what to do step-by-step, it has no remorse, and it surely doesn’t treat you kindly.

These past months have forced me to grow more than I’m comfortable with, it’s consumed every bit of my energy, time, and thoughts and in all honesty, I’m ashamed to say throughout this I’ve let my occupation affect my glorification.

God’s hand has been so evident in everything that’s been happening and I cannot help but point all praise back to him. I’m here to bring glory to God in my occupation, not allow my occupation to diminish my thanks to Him.

“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.” Romans 12:2